BTWEEN THE LINES OF FEAR AND BLAME...YOU BEGIN TO WONDER WHY U CAME (The fray)

2007-11-16T09:07:00.000+03:00

If I need to know if her heart is whole… that she could give it away

Doest it help to see yourself in them?

after this post, i no longer share this blog

2007-11-01T02:41:00.000+03:00

He Truley Has To Love ... LOVE ....Before He Can Truley Love Me

Dose He ? or Does He Not ?

2007-01-04T13:18:00.000+03:00

yesterday was my birthday and well theres no difference btween yestreday and 2 day
im leaving on the 16th of january and im not getting that exciting rush i was expecting

im 19 and my birthday wish was to become 6 again

On broken wings I'm falling
And it won't be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned kneesI'm bleeding
And it won't be longI've got to find that meaning
I'll search for so long
Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever

2006-12-09T17:12:00.000+03:00

When I offered you survival,You said it's hard enough to live ( THE KILLERS )

no shit let me think cuz it is........ and as humans we do give up and feel worthless and want to kill our selves and NO IM NOT GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE AND NO MY BLOG ISNT ( I WANT TO DIE BLOG ) BUT I ONLY WRITE IN IT WHEN IM EXTRMLLY HAPPY OR VICE VERSA so yea i was saying life suxs espcially when uve wanted something so bad for so long but BOOOOM its happening and ................um i dont want it to happen i want to be 6 again EVERYTHING IS CHANGING .........I WENT AND THEY GAVE ME A STUPID EXCUSE ...i miss u ....im broke ...she sappose come in a couple of days i dont want to see her .......STOP SCREAMING .... im not a pink girl im more of a palet of colors i was once upon a time a very bright and spirited kid and tha was sucked out of me and now im just ...ME and come to think of it i dont think htat i would befriend myself if i werent me but when u get to know me im not that bad i wanna have a baby but i dont want all the strings attached that come with it ...and im not talking about the dippers more like the man that behind the baby making ... will it change me ... will i be the same... i dunno ... i hope not .. i promised .. oo bakoon gadaha ....PRIVACY ..damn it respect my damn privacy yes and my laptop is something i consider private FAHAMTY ......WTF IS WRONG WITH UR DAMN HEAD IM BUSY SO DONT STARE AT ME I DONT LIKE IT WHEN IM DOING SOMETHING AND UR STARING u stupid retard im busy if i werent in a public place i would of beat the hell out of u ......fara7 shut up i dont wear a 3abaya in the states so leve me alone .... i hate the way they r taught things relating to extremists ......im starting to like the name 9ager ....in my head it sounds fine but i dont know if i actually call someone 9ager how would it sound......KIDS r so amusing and its so fun to watch them talk to each other and communicate .....baba i love u i swear i do and i love the fact the we spent a good four hours in the car to day see i told u etha masakna 5a6 layn 5ubar we would of been there by now but nooooooooo u dident listen to be instead we went around all of riyadh yes we spent 4 hours roming around riyadh me and baba fee 3iz el thuher and it was HOT .....aaaaaaaaah yara i hate the fact tha i wont be here when u grow up when u go through those critical years of becoming who u r bas no fear mama is getting old so she will have more time on her hands ...and yes dearest sis uve grown and so has 3azeez and yes in such a cruel society that mean 3azeez starts to think that u dont i7trim him if u dont ring him a glass of water 3azeez if u werent HOT i would of turned u into a gay guy ;) .......aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah where the yemani guy ive been waiting for my whole life MOROJ IF U READ THIS THEN U STILL OWE ME ONE OF UR COUSINS yes u promised me him in 6th grade and its been 8 years and u still havent FEDEXed HIM ........i dont like chocolate ........i would prefer a bag of chips so next time u wanna get me somehting get me chips and a7med im not jayzaniyah cuz i like tasaly OK ....
and i conclued this post like every other post with a song ( or shall i say part of a song )

I feel it inside, down in my soul
And I just can't hide these things that I know
Someone must have loved you
Not the way that I do...
You're missing what I'm trying to say
Ain't nothing getting in my way
So tell me that's fantastic
And promise me, you'll always sigh
I find it so romantic
When you look into my beautiful eyes
And lose control
Who let you go?
~>@.#,%^&*()
Help me through the hopeless
my oh my
Tragic eyes
I can't even recognize myself behind So if the answer is no
Can I change your mind
~>@.#,$%^&*()
I believe in you and me
I'm coming to find you
If it takes me all night
Wrong until you make it right
~>!.@#$%^&*()
If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive?
Though I'm closer to wrongI'm no further from right
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
~>.!,@#$%^&*()
Is it any wonder that I'm tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?
Oh, these days, after all the misery you made
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?
~>!.@#$,%^&*()
You wait,
wanting this world
To let you in
And you stand there
A frozen light
In dark and empty streets
You smile hiding behind
A God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to see
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

OK THIS IS BY FAR THE LONGEST POST IVE EVER WRITTER ( WELL I WROTE PART OF IT )

I WAFFELS ME ;D

2006-11-26T13:14:00.000+03:00

AS HE TOOK ME IN HIS ARMS I SCREAMED IM NOT INSANE IM JUST LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND MY PAIN ................................. AND HE DID

Easy Silence ( DIXIE CHICKS )

When the calls and conversations
Accidents and accusations
Messages and misperceptions
Paralyze my mind
Busses, cars, and airplanes leaving
Burning fumes of gasoline
And everyone is running
And I come to find a refuge in the
Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me

And anger plays on every station
Answers only make more questions
I need something to believe in
Breathe in sanctuary in the
Easy silence that you make for me

Children lose their youth too soon
Watching war made us immune
And I've got all the world to lose
But I just want to hold on to the
Easy silence that you make for me

PS .............WAFFELS ( WITH A HINT OF ME )

2006-11-13T19:23:00.000+03:00

it took me about 3 weeks to doodel all of this down ( during economics class )
we had just started the year and i was SO CONFUSED N E WAYS SO some of u guys might not think of this as art but to me this is as real as art gets lines and curves that come out from the depths of feelings each curve and line on that paper represents a tear and smile that i felt during thoes 3 weeks

and ill leave u with a song im starting to fall in love with more and more

lips of an angel (BY: Hinder )

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved
on It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel

2006-11-11T16:27:00.000+03:00

I've still got your face
Painted on my heart
Drawn upon my soul
Etched upon my memory, baby
And I've got your kiss
Still burning on my lips
The touch of your fingertips
This love so deep inside of me, baby
I've tried everything that I can
To get my heart to forget you
But it just can't seem to
I guess it's just no use
In every part of me
Is still a part of you

( GONE IN 60 SECONDS )

2006-10-17T02:11:00.000+03:00

Strange this sensation in my mind
Creature i will become one
On my way, there's no sun
But i have to carry on
Look my force is more powerfull
Piece by piece vampire rules
On my way, in my world
I realize past life has gone.
Future's changing again
Impulses're driving me away in hell
no tears in my eyes
there's no beat in my heart
I just feel the pain
Growin' into my brain
I'm still the son,
The abandoned child of eternity
I don't belong to the sky
I just follow my way
Ready to roam in the night
I hear this symphony
Running after the devil
The prince of immortals
Feared by everyone
I am strong as hard as metal
Innocent blood I must take on
the crime is in my soul
lust for life
I don't belong to the sky
I just follow my way
Ready to roam in the night
I hear this symphony
Running after the devil
The prince of immortals
freak for every one
I am proud as srtong as metal
Creature of flesh I must devour
To be free
Lust for life
Every night the realm is mine
Beware until the sunrise in the sky
In the night I stay here to bite
Take care of you, blood thirsty I am one
Eternalle.
And in my dream
All victims forgive me
They watch me in the sky
They light my way from the other side.
No tears in my eyes
there's no beat in my heart
I just feel the pain
Growin' into my brain
I'm still the son.
The abandoned child of eternity
I don't belong to the sky
I just follow my way
Ready to roam in the night
I hear this symphony
Running after the devil
The prince of immortals
Feared by everyone
I am strong as hard as metal
Innocent blood I must take on
the crime is in my soul
lust for life
I don't belong to the sky
I just follow my way
Ready to roam in the night
I hear this symphony
Running after the devil
The prince of immortals
freak for every one
I am proud as srtong as metal
Creature of flesh I must devour
To be free
Lust for life

2006-10-11T00:39:00.000+03:00

y cant there be this shop where u go and pick out a good looking MAN ( YES BISSA A MAN NOT A BOY MAN ) ketha u pay and u get this Catalogue and it has tons of pic in it and u just pick yes but u pick according to personality they would have to take a blood test ( or some shit like that ) and they would pair u up to the right group i mean come on im sure u guys have thought of it at least once and i know u totally agree so :P

i wish i was 6 yes 6 careless as can be and the only thing on my mind would be trying so hard to not get spagetti sauce on my clothes so mama wouldnt kill me and the daily shower i HAD TO TAKE

sleepless in sucky riaydh baba i know u wont read this but u didnt fax them im mad ur shahoooda is mad :"( and mama i know u could care less bas im going bowling and to luluz house LAZIM PLZZZ . AND YARA I SWEAR IF U DONT GO TO SLEEP RIGHT NOW ILL BUST A CAP UP UR SMALL A$$ . MAI U BELONG in zimbabwai loool

2006-10-01T18:53:00.000+03:00

the riddle ...................................life is a big confusing riddle and i cant manage to solve it ................im depressed ...............to all who know me know that i dont show it ..........ive buried myself under meaningless smiles itso october yes BLUE OCTOBER ............i wish i was 4 again :)

2006-08-30T01:02:00.000+03:00

well well,
its boring, everything is boring. i had my first blutooth chitchat with a total strainger called strawberry!

anyways it lasted three txts and then she kept blocking me after!! FUGG!! anyways her last msg was do u know me, i was like hua well not now, but i'd like to!

lol yeah that was completely 6i3si of me,, monz also thought so.

anyways cant wait to get back to saudi, feels more like home, atleast i dont feel people trying to sell me cheep stuff expesive and when you bargen its like ur asking for his mother!! WTF!!

l8rz yall

2006-08-16T16:48:00.001+03:00

I DEDICATE THIS POST TO LEO

I HOPE YOU DO WELL ON YOUR EXAMS

AND THANKS FOR MAKING MY BLOG BEAUTIFUL

SPANK YOU

2006-08-13T13:12:00.000+03:00

well, hey!!

i like my new blog! dont you?!!

and the most thing i like, well i'm not alone anymore, so here is my Sweetest new assistant posting her thoughts and mind..

anyways, SS, make meADMIN

so i could change in your settings add you links and the whole shebang, yeah also email me or let me know what do you want in ur blog -Whops! i mean mine! :D

enjoy my new blog..

Peace out yall..

PS: why hasnt anyone commented on Demonic

yet?!!!!

2006-08-13T05:23:00.000+03:00

Children's letters to god ( Baba got me this book ) ( By Stuart Hample and Eric Marshall )

1- DEAR GOD ....DID YOU MEAN FOR GIRAFFE TO LOOK LIKE THAT OR WAS IT AND ACCIDENT ?....................NORMA

2-DEAR GOD........ INSTEAD OF LETTING PEOPLE DIE AND HAVING TO MAKE NEW ONES WHY DONT YOU JUST KEEP THE ONES YOU GOT NOW ?.......JANE

3-DEAR GOD.........ITS OK THAT YOU MADE DIFFERENT RELIGONS BUT DONT YOU GET MIXED UP SOMETIMES ? ................. ARNOLD

4-DEAR GOD ........IN BIBLE TIMES DID THEY REALLY TALK THAT FANCY ?......JENNY

5-DEAR GOD....... WHEN YOU MADE THE FIRST MAN DID HE WORK AS GOOD AS WE DO NOW ?...............TOM

6-DEAR GOD .......GRANDPA SAYS THAT YOU WERE AROUND WHEN HE WAS A LITTEL BOY . HOW FAR BACK DO YOU GO ?..............DENNIS

( TELL ME IF YOU GUYS ENJOYED IT SO I CAN POST MORE OF THEM )

2006-08-12T05:12:00.000+03:00

Illusions never changed .............................................Into something real

2006-08-06T20:46:00.000+03:00

COMMERCIAL TAG

Hey u guys i just wanted to know ur favoriate TV commercial

(mines the one for rice krispy when the mom and her son pour milk into the bowl and listen for the SNAP CRACKLE & POP)

i tag:
EVERYONE

2006-08-02T06:53:00.000+03:00

Hold on Hold on i've been holding on for the past 5 fucking years to what just a fucking
illusion.

a mirage .

Thank you B and M

2006-08-02T04:39:00.000+03:00

NUMB ..............................
IVE HIT ROCK BOTTOM .....................THAST THE ONLY THING THATS GOING THROUGH MY MIND AS HES TALKING .............IS HE REALLY SERIOUS ............DOES HE MEAN IT ............CUZ HES HURTING ME AND HE DOSENT EVEN KNOW IT ................SOME1 TELL HIM TO STOP ..................hes hurting me and i cant bare it anymore

2006-07-09T11:26:00.000+03:00

You cut me down a treeAnd brought it back to meAnd that's what made me seeWhere I was going wrongYou put me on a shelfAnd kept me for yourselfI can only blame myselfYou can only blame meAnd I could write a songA hundred miles longWell, that's where I belongAnd you belong with meAnd I could write it downOr spread it all aroundGet lost and then get foundOr swallowed in the seaYou put me on a lineAnd hung me out to dryAnd darling that's when IDecided to go to see youYou cut me down to sizeAnd opened up my eyesMade me realizeWhat I could not seeAnd I could write a bookThe one they'll say that shookThe world, and then it tookIt took it back from meAnd I could write it downOr spread it all aroundGet lost and then get foundAnd you'll come back to meNot swallowed in the seaOoh...And I could write a songA hundred miles longWell, that's where I belongAnd you belong with meThe streets you're walking onA thousand houses longWell, that's where I belongAnd you belong with meOh what good is it to liveWith nothing left to giveForget but not forgiveNot loving all you seeOh the streets you're walking onA thousand houses longWell that's where I belongAnd you belong with meNot swallowed in the seaYou belong with meNot swallowed in the seaYeah, you belong with meNot swallowed in the sea

2006-06-17T01:16:00.000+03:00

it's A .............Shit Mother Fucker Fuck Shit.......SITUATION

and Ketchup packets were flying every where ..........and once again she lives * wink wink*

2006-06-15T12:06:00.000+03:00

IF GOD WOULDNT BLAME HER ......SHE WOULD BUT A BULLET TO MY HEAD

AND I HAD NO IDEA WHAT TO SAY ...........I STARED AT HER WITH MY MOUTH WIDE OPEN ..............

A VIRTUAL BLOOD BATH OF EMOTIONS ......................................MISERABLE

2006-06-12T18:43:00.000+03:00

6 things you need to know about La Perla bella (La brazilian bella's sister)

1. I adore food (no not just eating it also watching it cooking it flirting with it and if it's possible in any way shape or form making luv to it)

2. Watching any food network is as pleasurable to me as porno is to0o many many people

3. I talk dala3 but im no where NEAR dala3

4. I don't express my feelings but i do say whats on my mind

5. ive got SUPER DUPER TRES MUCHO curly hair

6. Im hilton K.S.A sister number 2

P.S as i go on this list will be updated
oh ya P.S.S this is written by La brazilian bella
P. Triple S i know what P.S stands for :P

2006-06-12T17:55:00.000+03:00

Sisters
Sister-Such a simple word that means so very much... a little hug, a great big smile,a warm and gentle touch
Sister-Such a simple word to cover all the ways you've helped me out and picked me up, brought sunshine to my days
Sister- Such a simple word for someone held so dear, for someone who is cherished even more with every year
Sister- Such a simple word, and yet there is no doubt, six simple little letters spell what love is all about
I LUB YOU la brazilin Bella
Memories that will be forever cherished
1. Your 3 a.m phonecalls
2. New York summer of 05
3. Your pinapple juice fetish
4. Annoying mama with you
5. Our never ending sleepovers at JeJe and JuJu's house
6. Teaching me how to put on mascara the right way in exchange for me teaching you how to strut your stuff in heels :P
7. Our never ending "Im prettier than you" fights
8. Drinking pina coladas so fast we get intense brain freeze lol
9. Super man panties
10. Tanning at 7 in the morning <>
11. Weekend mornings walking to 7 eleven with haifa o0o s3o0od and comng back home all sticky from the popsicles
12. The year i soo called GREW UP you were there for me every step of the way
13. LuLu and You video taping the guys in the lobby of the ritz at 2 am <>
14. La maison du cafe ,, was it mazin or man9o0or not sure bas lulu was Fucking crazy
15. Friday nights at Tysons with maryo0om and jo0ory
16. Ayam il bus with zulfa o0o hayfa
17. zawaj rab3a o0o fai9al embarrasing >
18. badir il m6w3 rgming me NOT u at 7flt nabeel sh3ayl <> btw ppl <> i got ragimid by a SEMI super star :P19. Janadrya in the scortching sun
20. me you o0o lulu at 4 seasons that rama*9an night till 5 a.m
21. Cinema 16 SHABAB cinema 16 22.Do0oLy'z 8azam craze loool <>
23. t7lya with baso0om till 2 a.m
24. Jameela Mania now i know how she must have felt lool LITTLE kids r so0o damn annoying
25. Pleasure island o0o those q8y shabab <> LIKE THAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE looooooooooooool
26. i SWEAR TO DRUNK IM NOT GOD
o0o many many more.

P.S i was having doubts about writing this giving the fact that your not a BLOGGER,, but decided to anyways cuz if ever one day you go blog surfing hehe i wanna make sure it'll be here for you to read
kiss kiss your Tanzaynian Bella >.<